The root of my problem is my relationship with food. I just don't know my limits. I have a hard time with portion control. And I want to eat during every single emotion I ever feel.
|You're right, this is not me...mainly because this would be a plate of cheese instead of a plate of donuts. |
But the message remains the same: I have a food addiction.
I ask you guys to be there for me.
To support me.
To encourage me to make wise decisions.
To talk me about of the large pizza with extra pepperoni.
To sway me from the bacon cheeseburger.
To convince me that sour cream, ranch dressing, and cheese do not make everything better.
But I have a hard time listening. Or I become a closet eater, which means I shovel food in my face when no one is looking.
And to be honest with you, I'm completely terrified of getting pregnant and reaching 300 lbs.
That means I'd be beyond qualified for The Biggest Loser.
Today I weighed about 232 lbs.
Not my highest (241).
And far from my lowest (199).
I'm sure it's a combination of bloating + holiday weight gain + vacation snacks and drinks + holiday drinking. But today, I realized my problem.
I try to give up everything all at once.
No cheese. No mayo. No bacon. No burgers. No fried food. No ranch dressing.
I completely wipe it out of my diet for a week or so.
Kick major butt.
Drop the lbs quickly.
Then, I fall off the wagon.
I add a strip of bacon on my egg sandwich.
I ask for cheese on my burrito bowl at Qdoba.
And then the wagon runs me over. Then the wagon backs up and runs over me again. The next thing you know, I'm back where I started writing a blog like this or this.
Promising you that next time will be different.
Explaining that this time I have the answer.
Saying that my attitude is different.
Informing you that I'm inspired for change.
And then you read something like this or the blog post today.
You are quickly reminded that I'm human. And I make mistakes. But I make the mistakes often and have a hard time learning from them.
So, I've put together a 30 Day challenge...inspired by my friend Ann Semon's blog.
I'm not trying to eliminate every single horrible food from my diet. And I'm not making an outrageous claim to workout every single day twice. Instead, I've developed a plan. For the next 30 days, I'll do the following in my version of a Boot Camp.
- Avoid alcohol. No exceptions.
- Do cardio 3-4 times a week for at least 30 minutes each time.
- Do strength training twice a week for at least 20 minutes each time.
- Do 150 abs every single day (sets of 25 each method).
- Do 15 push-ups each day.
- No mayo. This sneaky condiment can easily add 100-300 calories to your sandwich depending on how much gets piled on!
- No fried food. No exceptions.
- Eat fruit for breakfast 4-5 days a week.
- I'm allowed 3 cheat meals a week. The cheat meal can include anything except booze, mayo, or fried food.
Don't know what burpees are? Click here to watch this video. Basically, they suck and make me want to vomit. But breaking rules at Boot Camp has consequences.
So today marks Day 1. I'll document all of my food intake and exercise in MyFitnessPal, which is an app that is available for you to download and use too (free)! My username is ashleysieb. Sign-up and add me as a friend!
My 30 Day Boot Camp will end on Sunday, February 3.
By that point, my hope is everything I've done will become a habit. And I can start a new program to inspire new fitness routines. I'm sure there are better exercises or goals I could add. I'm certainly open to your ideas and suggestions for the next 30 days. But for now, this is my plan. And you're welcome to join me.
I'm not doing this for a resolution (you can read my focus for 2013 here and here). I'm doing this so I can live a long and healthy life with my family. And as one of my best friend's Ashley wrote in her recent blog post, I need to do this for me.
Not a number on the scale.
Or a certain dress size.
Or vacation destintation.
I am doing this for me.
P.S. Bachelor workouts start on Monday. I hope you join me!! I'll post the workouts on my blog every Monday!